Sunday, 22 March 2015

People Come First To Me ( and a little about how i see SOME schools, and my passion to change things )

To be honest, in my opinion, I do not see schools, I see businesses. I see places that say that they care for the community, that they are here to teach and help the students, but when it comes to protecting them, they use " bullying " and " anti bullying " as a way to market themselves. A way for them to be seen as something different than what they really are. Just think of these schools as a product for a second, seeing that they do work in one way, but yet there are signs or side effects, and the people, the creators who have made these products are not taking the time to really see the issue and fix it, rather they are promoting that this is an issue. In order to fix this issue, THERE MUST BE SOMETHING IN SCHOOLS, A CURE, A WAY TO MAKE THESE SIDE EFFECTS GO AWAY, OR AT LEAST CONTROLLED!

People come first, it has always been this way for me. Some people have told me that I care and think of others too much, Some say that it is pointless to be so focused on creating such a change that I am trying to create, that it will only lead to failure, that it's just how life is. That it's just how schools are, it is just how people are, it is just how the world is. I have had a rough past, caused me to sort of have mix feelings about what I wanted to be, but deep down, I have always had a strong feeling to create change for people, to help, to make change. It has always been in me, but in the past, I just wanted to settle down because I always felt like maybe I was looking for attention, but I AM NOT. I can see how things are and how things should be, I have such a strong feeling, passion, and desire to change things for the better, and I have fully committed myself to create this change I have mentioned above. There is nothing else that matters to me, from now on, this is my goal in life, to create the change I could have made, and to CREATE THE CURE IN SCHOOLS! One part of me may be gone for now, but my desire and determination to create change will not go away! People say that I can not do it, or that it can NOT BE DONE, but I WILL PROVE THEM WRONG! PEOPLE COME FIRST!

Thursday, 12 March 2015

New Life, New Beginnings, You Can Change Your Future, AND HAVE WHAT MATTERS MOST TO YOU!

People may think that once you are on one path, you choose to do one thing, once you have graduated in something, that it defines you. That you have been placed and labeled something and can not change that. That there is no other way to go but straight, and never go on that path that you really wanted. That you can not try to have that thing that really matters to you, just cause you THINK it won't work out, or that they will not accept you because of who you are, or what you do. You may think that you can no longer be what you want to be because you have went from being the " type " that fits that position, to something different ( like going from being talkative to being silenced because of being bullied or depression and so on and not being able to be in a field where you talk to people cause you think it no longer fits you ). Anyone can become what they choose to be, anyone can make a difference in the world, in the way they with to do it. If you are passionate enough about it, you can create a chance greater than what others, maybe even yourself, thought that you could. People have their own opinions on things, and may think that what you want to be is wrong or its never going to work out, just cause of their opinion of what it is, or their opinion of you. NEVER LISTEN TO OTHERS WHEN IT COMES TO DOING AND BEING YOU AND DOING WHAT MATTERS MOST TO YOU! Know what you want to become, know what is your desired outcome, and also a bit about what you may have to do to make it happen. For example, you may have had been through so much, like I have, and have chosen to be alone, in a way to not isolate yourself, but to reach that position in your life, sort of like motivating yourself in a matter that may seem strange to some, but in the end, you will achieve something great. To have just a bit of that feeling of people not believing in you as a motivation to be more than what they think you are, to create a change in the world, to make your mark in the world. KNOW, UNDERSTAND, BELIEVE, FEEL, SEE, MOTIVATE, AND BECOME WHAT MATTERS MOST TO YOU, AND GET WHAT MATTERS MOST TO YOU, ANY WAY THAT YOU CAN, AND IN YOUR OWN WAY. NEVER GIVE UP, ALWAYS KEEP PUSHING FORWARD.

I will be starting my new path in just a few days, going to college as mentioned in my past posts. Going into something that some people have said that will be pretty hard for me, and even sounded like they do not believe I will be able to achieve what I have said in the past. Here is a song that made me think about writing this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-w2m-TeLi6I

Monday, 9 March 2015

Overthinking, Overfeeling ( using your mind more than your heart, or your heart more than thinking )

Some people tend to over think things, to the point that they lose what they want the most, they lose what they want personally, and aim more towards what is " logical ". They tend to push certain things or people away just because they assume they are bad or wrong, they tend to judge more without really seeing it themselves. They also tend to push their thoughts more to the point that they want their point to be just, to make it look like their idea or thought on things is the top best way to go, that if others do not go with what they say, that they are " stupid ". In life, we have freedom to choose what we wish to be, to be with who we want, to choose the way that we wish to do things, to think and feel the way that you wish to think and feel about the world and everything. Over thinking things may make you rich, and may give you such an amazing looking life, but in time, you will have so much things that seem right, but yet feel something wrong, that is because you have focused so much time on logic, that you never once took the time to know what truly matters to you. You chose to go into something knowing the outcome of it, but yet later you have realized that all you want is to settle down with someone, that is an example.

The opposite of that is over feeling, to concentrate to much on your heart. Sometimes this may be a really good thing to do, to focus on what truly matters to you, and I believe that you should always focus on what truly matters to you. However, what I am saying about over feeling is the times where you fall in love with those who abuse you, to do things that is so harmful but yet it makes you feel happy, to drop your school for someone else, then later realizing that you really want to become someone, but maybe you can no longer do that, or maybe its the opposite, you focus so hard on wanting to become something that you lose someone that you love. Over feeling things can most of the time lead you to a much more happier life, but you also have to think and take the time to see if you are really ready to take that step that may change your life forever. Balance both your heart and mind, know what truly matters to you, and also think of what will it lead, and if you really want it, and if you are ready for it.


Wednesday, 4 March 2015

A Song To Those I Once Felt Deep For... those moments before it all changed

The song is called Fairy Tale by Omnia.... enjoy

the song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2hH2JFSGMiM

Child of the pure unclouded brow
And dreaming eyes of wonder!
Though time be fleet, and I and thou
Are half a life asunder,

Thy loving smile will surely hail
The love-gift of a fairy-tale. (x2)

I have not seen thy sunny face,
Nor heard thy silver laughter:
No thought of me shall find a place
In thy young life's hereafter

Enough that now thou wilt not fail
To listen to my fairy-tale. (x2)

A tale begun in other days,
When summer suns were glowing-
A simple chime, that served to time
The rhythm of our rowing-

Whose echoes live in memory yet,
Though envious years would say 'forget.' (x2)

Come, hearken then, ere voice of dread,
With bitter tidings laden,
Shall summon to unwelcome bed
A melancholy maiden!

We are but older children, dear,
Who fret to find our bedtime near. (x2)

Without, the frost, the blinding snow,
The storm-wind's moody madness-
Within, the firelight's ruddy glow,
And childhood's nest of gladness.

The magic words shall hold thee fast:
Thou shalt not heed the raving blast. (x2)

And, though the shadow of a sigh
May tremble through the story,
For 'happy summer days' gone by,
And vanish'd summer glory-

It shall not touch, with breath of bale,
The pleasance, of our fairy-tale. (x2)

Though time be fleet, and I and thou
Are half a life asunder,

Thy loving smile will surely hail
The love-gift of a fairy-tale

People May Change, Don't Make Them Change You!

People may they feel one way about you, but yet act another way later on. They may always be around you, then all of a sudden not care if you are even around. People may have their reasons for what they do, or maybe some people just change because of the area they are in, once a really nice heart in search for another, to a heart that is ready to give out to more than one at a time, I think you get what I mean by that. It can really make one feel like they have never really cared for you at all, and make you feel so hurt, but know that its their loss, not yours. They may have a lot of issues that they are going through, they may not really understand what they are doing, because they are surrounded with people who are doing the same thing, or maybe moved to a place that like, and shown to you that they can give in so fast to anything, never truly being themselves. They may sound one way, but look another, always be careful with who you trust, especially online, those who say they looking for a true relationship, even sounding like a gamer, but yet having pictures of them in a bit of a " different way ". You can never trust anyone, but you can always trust yourself, and believe in yourself, and know yourself. Never change yourself for someone else, especially when they seem to no longer care for you, its their loss, they cheated, or they just wasn't what you thought they were. Focus on loving yourself, know yourself inside and out, and know what you want from another, know what you need in a relationship, and take the time to experience the world we live in, we only live once. In the end, you can never truly trust anyone, I have experienced it myself a few times trust me I have been hurt, a lot, by people who pretended, or acted, or seemed to care when they didn't. BE CAREFUL, AND NEVER CHANGE WHO YOU ARE! KNOW YOURSELF! LOVE YOURSELF! LOVE WHAT YOU DO AND WHO YOU ARE! SHE OR HE WILL COME TO YOU ONE DAY! AND IF NOT, AT LEAST YOU WILL BE LIVING A FREE, HAPPY LIFE WITHOUT FEAR OF " THEM "!

Monday, 2 March 2015

Who Am I ( poem )

I am the light, that was once darkness

I am the open hand, when you see emptiness

I am the fire, that burns brightly

I am truth, in a world of little honesty

I am the shield, that protects from hate

I am the beam, that burns a path straight

I have faced so much, yet I continue on 

I may have lost my path, yet something in me stays strong

I chosen to be alone, in order to make the dream a reality

I am now focused on one thing, to make them see

That I am what I say I am, even if I may have slipped in the past

The lies from before has now passed ( of my past relationship, and some other things ) 

I am now focused on one thing, to become what I was meant to be

I AM CHANGE, I AM HOPE, I WILL SET PEOPLE FREE ( those suffering in schools, or anywhere, and to make the change that I have said before, I no longer have any distractions, nothing holding me down, and no one to put any priority on, just those that are suffering and to make those who have become blind with - money over community - to really see what is happening, and what they are doing, and make things better! ) 

( just 2 weeks, till i really start to build something, by doing to college, the beginning to the change, will build myself up, and will bring change, one way or another)