Monday, 30 September 2013

Whats Wrong In The World

Job posts that mention entry level, or recent grad, then telling people who have recently graduated or little experience that they NOT QUALIFIED! or that they found someone better, how is it possible to find someone better for an ENTRY LEVEL RECENT GRAD position? 

Community workers ( example, school boards, teachers, principles, and so on, people who work for the people ) who say they work for us, but focused on themselves and tell people that they have nothing to give even though they have the support of the people, of doctors, life coaches, and more.If they do not take the time to read or listen to an idea that could help make things better, then how is it possible to change things? 

Abuse ... keeping people down and buried and trapped. trapped in an abusive relationship, trapped in their school, home, anywhere and everywhere. 

Bullying, feeling hurt, alone, isolated and more. Not going away, causing one to feel hurt for life. 

With just these 4 things I have mentioned, things will take a real REAL long time to get better. Companies need to realize that when they seeking recent grads, that that means anyone who has a real diploma or degree and so on, that they are already qualified, if your company provides training, then train them. if they leave, be happy you chose to bring in a recent grad and give them the ability to improve, you can even promote that you care and welcome people to your company. You will build more than just employees and so on, but even a a fan base of some sort, people liking what you are doing and support you. Stop accepting people who are overqualified for a RECENT GRAD position, it only shows that they can not be trusted, and may also get less people applying to any jobs that you post, because you show that you want to give recent grad an opportunity, but then shoot them down by hiring someone " better ", showing that you not care much about giving people opportunity to improve in your company, meaning causing DISTRUST in recent grads, and causing others to lose hope in their search. 

About the community workers who do not care, as I mentioned in my last blog, there needs to be a system that focuses on making sure that the people who will be working for us, the people, that they have the mental focus to do their job, and be tested after every few years or so, make sure they have not lost focus FOR THE PEOPLE and now FOR THEMSELVES. 

About bullying and abuse, things might be real real tough, but there are always ways out of it, or at least ways to feel comfortable ( when it comes to bullying ). If you are stuck in an abusive relationship and feel as though there is no where to go, always take the time to look carefully at what he is doing and think of what you can say to distract him or her, then take the opportunity to take action, weather that is calling the cops, or running out and finding someone, there is always a way, never let them make you think that you not smart enough or anything because you are, everyone has something special, and life is like a series of tests, find a way to free yourself and you will be rewarded more ways than you can think of. 


Thursday, 26 September 2013

Cries Not Being Heard...

Seeing a lot of stories and stuff these days about this, about people committing suicide. We continue to focus so much effort in awairing people about these stories, but very few of us really takes the time to really put in the effort to change it. I have tried and tried for days, months working on speaking out and doing what I can to create change, but the people in power, the companies and community people who say they here for us ( like school boards ) are more focused on the well being of " their image ", meaning they worried about people wanting to share their ideas no matter how many support is behind it because they are scared that it will backfire and it will look bad to them, not focusing on the real focus, that needs to be on the students, the people, the community and giving those who need it to feel needed, wanted, accepted, and appreciated, and to feel special in their school or wherever it is. Once they actually stop caring about themselves and start to care more about the people they say they work for, things will be much MUCH better, things can truly change. It is in their hands mostly, the people in power, school boards and so on, but they continue to pretend, or not focus on what they really need to be doing, OR that they do not have the mental ability to do so, meaning they may have had hard times in their life and now the people who say they work for us is more focused on themselves, and less on the people because of their troubled history. There must be a mental test for those in power who really look as though they are only focused on themselves more, and can not see that they are putting more effort on themselves than others. No one can truly change things if the people in power is stuck, focused, and glued on themselves and their needs.

I have visited my old high school one day, and talked to my old teachers, they were real nice and stuff, but cause of the new principle, who was real strict and so focused on her own needs. she did not even take any time to hear the idea I had, sure she had the time to let me sit down with her to talk about it, but she told me that I had NOTHING to show her because I do not have the experience, like a degree in something, EVEN THOUGH I had life coaches, and doctors who said that what I had to show was something that would really help schools and so on. She didn't even ask if I had the contact info for them ( which I do ) . If they do not even take the time to sit down and hear an idea, or even read an idea, then how can someone tell them anything, even at assemblies and so on? People must be tested before putting them in a big strong position that should be focused on others, not themselves, and I mean more than just getting a degree and studies and so on.

Wednesday, 18 September 2013

Employment Stress ( an article about my current situation, and thoughts about how hard it is to get a job )

This is an article that I writing about my experience with trying to get a job in my field, having graduated from College and have got my mind focused on getting a job in my field ( computers ) and can not even get a single job, applying for over 15 jobs a day ( all entry level, junior, or intermediate, and would like to point out that it has been like 2 YEARS ), contacting recruiter after recruiter on various sites such as linkedin and so on. I have been stressing, not like getting angry or depressed and so on, but it has gone to the point that its causing me to one, but more like feeling as though for my field, all they looking for is people with work experience, even for entry level positions, telling me that they finding better people for an entry level position..... entry level, positions meant for people with NO WORK EXPERIENCE ( or little ), and yet I am not qualified. And yet, I am being told by trainers that I get to improve my skills, telling me that I am real good at what I do ( web development and testing ). I am honestly thinking giving up on getting a programming based job, cause it is close to IMPOSSIBLE. Sure they are well paid, but its getting a job that is more important than the money I COULD BE GETTING. Also, knowing that it has been 2 years and the only job that I could get was from a family friend and was only 4 months of non paid work. Knowing that I only worked for 4 months, and having a big gap on my resume, I starting to think that I will not be able to get a job next year AT ALL.

As I mentioned, this is really getting me stressed, not in the way that it makes me feel angry, not in the way that I would cry over it, but more like being so focused knowing that I have what it takes to DO the work, but not being able to HAVE it. With people telling me I have the skills to do the work, and yet being told that I am not qualified for an entry level position, I feel as though things are messed up, how is getting a general labor work easier than an entry level computer position..... general labor, easier to get because as some ads show, you can simply walk into their office and have your little interview without waiting and being hired on the spot ( as some kijiji ads say ). Yet when it comes to an entry level computer job, You can be told that you are not qualified for the position, even if the position was for recent grads....... I honestly feel like simply getting a general labor job not because i give up, not because i feel as i do not have the skills because I DO, but because at least one, i CAN get a damn job, and they most likely will not say that someone is not qualified for an entry level, recent grad position, other that or going to university and going into a program that i want to go into AND that I can get a job from.

Saturday, 14 September 2013

What Makes One A Champion?

What makes one a champ, makes one special, and makes one on top of the world? Is it the effort of one to make themselves look better than everyone else around them, in order to be looked at as the most impressive looking person ever? Is it taking any opportunity you can find, not caring about the moral choices and so on, just to take hold of the top spot?

Being a champion can be earned, and named in all sorts of ways, no matter what choice one takes, there will always be people who will disrespect, hate, and many more things. Depending on the situation, the hate given to a champion may have a lot of proof behind that hate, such as someone cheating, bullies his way up, and misleading others in order to become a champion. That type of champion who would cheat, bully, and mislead, could be shown as a selfish, and egotistical, self centered, and greedy champion.

One should show respect, kindness, determination, courage, desire, benevolent, and to never play with people's emotions for self gain. To be a respected champion, one must push as hard as they can and improve their skills and work to gain the top prize without looking at any cheap tricks. A true respectful champion focuses on others than themselves, focus on creating something special not just for themselves but for others.

The path to become something special has many paths and choices. Depending on what path you choose to make, there will always be consequences, always be people who will try to bring you down. Stay strong and believe in what you doing. If you want to be respected and looked up to, focus on being benevolent, and always think of whats best for the people. Do what you believe is right, if you really strongly believe that you matter more than others, then you have no one to blame but yourself. Choose your path, and never blame others for what you done.

Friday, 13 September 2013

Thoughts From A Tortured Soul

This is just a little something I chose to write up, from watching segments from WWE of a wrestler named Bray Wyatt. WHAT I HAVE WRITTEN ARE NOT MY PERSONAL THOUGHTS OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT. It is just a little creepy thing I felt like making after seeing Bray Wyatt, please look him up and you will understand, And also because it is ( at the time this was published ) Friday the 13th.


The walls around you, trapped in them, isolated, alone, but they will never leave you. They are there to keep you safe from the unknown, the world outside is a scary place, why would anyone want to break them, the walls that you have always known, the walls that has been with you for such a long time that you know everything of them. Every little mark of them, everything that they do, even allowing you to change the way they look by any means. No one will send you away for messing up your walls.

Fire are your friends too, keeps you safe from harm, warms you up in cold times. Warms your body and soul in so many different ways, creates a smile on your face when you feel so cold and frozen, shows you the way and gives you hope. When feeling cold, it can light a spark and burn a path of enlightenment and turn your life around. Burning in flames will open your mind, your body, and bring out something in you like no other, and build something special in you. Its also a great way to clear body mind and soul of anything.

Screams, I hear so many screams, the sounds of life, fills me with emotions, feelings of life. The sounds so loud that I can hear it from anywhere. Sounds of life so open and so emotional. Why do they choose to resist such an emotional response with all that I give?

You tell me that I am crazy for thinking the way I do, I say thank you, because the world is a crazy place, so many weird things happening in the world, and to be called crazy makes me feel apart of everything. Thank you for thinking that way about me, and including me in this crazy world. How about you come with me to a place that you never dreamed of  ....  > : )

Song Lyrics To The Fallen

This is a list of 3 songs lyrics ( not written by me ) for those who have lost someone in any way:


Hammerfall: The Fallen One

I saw your face in the morning sun
Oh, I thought you were there
I heard your voice as the wind passed me by
Silently, whispering my name
So many things that I wanted to say
Forever left untold
I still remember the tears that you shed
Over someone else
Our love could never die
All I can do is cry
Save a little prayer for the fallen one
There is a light down at memory lane
Slowly fading away
Still holding on to the dreams torn apart
I will follow my heart
Our love could never die
All I can do is cry
Save a little prayer for the fallen one
Still on my own, chasing the sun
Of a time long ago
The shade in my heart, tearing apart
Everything that I long for
I saw your face in the morning sun
Oh, I thought you were there
I heard your voice as the wind passed me by
Whispering my name
Our love could never die
All I can do is cry
Save a little prayer for the fallen one

Hammerfall: Always Will Be

Our sun is set, our day is done, I'm left here wondering
Is this the end, my final words to you
Day turned to night and now you're gone, I'm left here pondering
Can this be true, are we really through

You were the wind beneath my wings, taught me how to fly
With you I lived among the kings, how could this ever die

So I say farewell, I'm yours forever,
And I always will be

We were one, we were all, we were the only
Future full of hope, nothing could stand in our way
But dreams can change, visions fall, I feel so lonely
I would walk through fire for just one more day

You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free
Now I'm a stranger in your eyes, walls are closing in on me

So I say farewell, I'm yours forever
And I always will be
Missing you, in my heart you are the one
And you always will be

When I turn to the east, I see no dawn,
But after darkness comes the light
And when I turn to the west, the silent night hides all
Where is the light that shines so bright

So I say farewell, I'm yours forever
And I always will be
Missing you, in my heart you are the one
And you always will be

Nah-nah-na, and you always will be
Nah-nah-na, and you always will be
And you always will be
My little one you are
And you always will be

Hammerfall: Glory To The Brave

Snow is falling down on this glorious land
Colours fading, turning into white again
To fallen heroes angels sing, they cry their winter tears
Endless mourning days will turn to years


So this is goodbye, I take leave of you and
Spread your wings and you will fly away now, fly away
Now


Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave


Every solemn moment I will treasure inside
Even though it's hard to understand
That a silent wind can blow the candle out
Taking everything leaving the pain far behind


You call out my name, but your voice is fading
Into the wind, embraced, you'll fly away now, fly away
Now


Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave


My eyes are closed I feel you're faraway ( so close )
Far beyond that shining star
I know you'll find what you've been fighting for
Far beyond that shining star


Down on bended knee I pray, bring courage to these Souls
Make'em live forever in the heart of the bold
So I say farewell my friends, I hope we'll meet again
When my time has come to fall from grace


So this is goodbye, I take leave of you and
Spread your wings and you will fly away now, fly away
Now


Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave

Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave



Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave

Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave

Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave

Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave

Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave

YEAAAAAAAA!

Nothing on earth stays forever
But none of your deeds were in vain
Deep in our hearts you will live again
You're gone to the home of the brave

Enough Focus on Awareness! ( relates to bullying )

People already know about what bullying is, about. knowing how bad it can get, how horrific it can be. People can simply walk out of their house, see someone crying while being laughed at or beaten up, and be aware of it, or even see it on Youtube and on the news. People are " aware " of it, but yet the people in power continue to focus on giving people a chance to speak out and have their voice heard and to have other people be " aware " of it. When will they learn that we are done with this focus of having bullying be aware, and finally take action? When will they really try to make something that will give those victims of bullying, something that will make them feel needed, wanted, accepted, and appreciated not just in their area they are in ( school or wherever ), but in life?

People are not blind, people are not forgetful when it comes to seeing people in fear and pain. How can the people in power ( school boards and so on ) not feel, not realize, not understand that the time for talk is over?! its time for change, its time for something that will bring about a brighter future for those in need.

Awareness is a word used by the people in power to push aside the most important issues that face their schools, so that they can focus on " the living ". We need to come together and find the way to change their mind, and work to create a future that gives everyone a chance to shine, not just for those who are living, but for everyone. To turn their focus from awareness to action.

Friday, 6 September 2013

Time For Me To Do Me ( to do something for me )

I have tried to be heard from a certain school board for over a year, emails, Facebook posts, speeches done at town hall meetings, and going to a few schools talking to a few principles. I have worked hard at creating hope for victims of bullying by giving an idea that I really believe would be able to give those who are suffering a chance to truly show what they have to offer, and to feel needed, wanted, and appreciated in their school. I have spent so much time trying to be heard. After such a long time, I think that I have finally reached someone from there. However, it has been over a year, way over 12 months, I have been unemployed for such a long time because I was focused on making people's lives better in schools. I have put so much effort in having my idea heard for so long. I have been so focused on helping people for so long, back when I was in high school ( I am 23 years old now so you can figure out how long that is ). I have done so much for others, that I have not took the time to think about myself and my future and so on.

I am not saying that I am stopping my blog and stuff, still going to be doing this when I can. However, I have to think about my future at this point. I still feel strong about anti bullying and wanting to make people feel better and so on, but sometimes in life, you need to think about yourself and create a future for yourself and so on if you understand what I am saying. I still want to help people and give people hope and so on, have done so much for others for so long. However, at this point, I need to focus on having a future, having a job having a career and so on.

Just thought I would write a little article about whats going on and so on.

Monday, 2 September 2013

Suicidal Death AND Accidental Death

Suicide, choosing to end it all, having suffered one way or another so much, that makes one think of ending it by ending their own life. This is something that no one with a soul would ever want to hear that someone, especially someone they care about, is even thinking about it. Suicide is, most of the time, a choice made by someone who just can't take it any more, sometimes it may be the only choice to make to escape their horrific situation. Most of the time, the people who choose to commit this action can not take being isolated, being bullied, feeling hurt from people's words, and various other bullying things. There are of course certain situations, for example, being brutally abused by people, but ignored by the ones with the power to stop it, but sometimes, words can dig deep down and cause someone to choose an action that they can never turn back and change. Suicide is a choice that people can choose any time. However, being an OPTION, it is one that one needs to think about very very carefully before taking. Look carefully at the situation, is it one that is so horrific, one that is so chaotic, that it can never change even after 10 or 20 years, like being stuck with an abusive person, such as an ex boyfriend / girlfriend ( or ex wife or husband ) who does not seem to understand that it's over and stays in the house and abuse you and so on. Is the situation you are in right now something that bad, or worse? Is your situation not so bad, like being verbal abused, something that can be real tough especially at a young age, but can end and be changed. For the spiritual people out there, suicide is something that is never acceptable, if your situation was being isolated and feeling lonely, and you choose to end it, you are making the choice to end your life, meaning you are showing that you are not strong enough to " pass the test that god set for you ". However, if your situation was horrific and something that is really horrible, then your choice may be the only way that god gave you to save your life, by bringing you up to "god" and to give you a better life up in haven. God has made every one of you special, gave you skills that no one else has. Have created you in god's image, and like everyone knows, is always giving and always fair and so on. Also, if god puts you in a situation where it may be really tough on you, god would want to test you, to see how you react to certain situation, to see what type of person you choose to be. Life is like a large test, if you choose to push on and do not let the feeling of "ending it " control you, like the saying goes, more pain, more gain. Show the world that you have what it takes to stand up to hate and so on, and life will give you something special.

Now for the second section to this article, Accidental death. It is sad when someone dies in an accident, a car hitting another car, someone accidentally bumps into someone, and one of them falls onto something and.... well you understand what I am saying. Very sad situations, but some situations may not seem as bad as they really are. Yes death is always bad and horrible, however, if the person who dies, if that person has done so much horrific things, such as trapping people in a basement and abusing them and so on, is it really that bad? Before you respond to what I just said, think about it for a second. if someone was doing so many horrific things, probably went out and abuses people and drinks while driving and then one day he crashes accidentally. There is always a reason to every action. God could be protecting people from him or her. God could be watching out for others.

Now I do feel, believe, and know that every single death no matter what the situation is, every single death is horrific and sad. However, SOME deaths may have a story behind it, a really horrific story that no one would ever want to be in or apart of in any way. Always prey for those who passed on, always hope for better for others, always prey that things will be better for others and so on, but never let sad moments control you or bring you down, No one truly knows how someone is, what their life story was, what they done or what happened to them. Always know that they have gone to a better place, and if its something you cared about, just know that they may ( depending on the situation ) be looking down at you and wishing for the best for you.

Sunday, 1 September 2013

Bullies Do What They Do Because....

Bullies bully because all they want is to feel comfortable about their rough time life, and wish to bring others to feel worse then they do so they can feel happy.

Bullies abuse because they feel as though you don't understand that they are not happy, and instead of explaining and taking the time to say how they feel, they go to the extreme by abusing you, just to show you that they not happy, and that they need something ( or need you to do something ) to make them feel better about their life, such as crying for them, simply picking something up, looking at something, or worse.

Bullies force people to do things that they say will benefit them because they do not understand how to beg for forgiveness properly. They do not understand that forcing others, no matter what it is, makes people upset, scared, and feel worse than they were before, or they don't even care how you feel, as long as you say what they want you to say, like " I forgive you " just so that they can tell you that you told them that your ok with what they forcing you to do because you " forgave them ". They don't understand that money ( or anything )  will never change what you have done to someone's soul.

Bullies embarrass others just for their entertainment. They don't care about your feelings, they only care about themselves, and how they feel.

Bullies make fun of others because they want to find ways to make you feel bad about yourself in any way they can. They want you to respond in a bad way so that they can laugh and feel happy seeing you get in trouble for something that they started.

Bullies do what they do because they only care about how they feel, and some can never change the way they are. In time, they will get whats coming to them, what you give is what you get. If you cause fear to others, in time it will be you who are in fear of others. Bullies may never understand, but in time, they will see one way or another ( like looking back at their life before " the end " ).